It’s been nearly two weeks since I last blogged and I am almost upset that no-one has messaged / Facebook-ed / Tweeted me to see what has happened to me and why I have suddenly gone on an unannounced blog break… Well, it’s okay, I will pretend that you all missed me and my blog 🙂 But yeah, if you have been a long-time reader, you will know that I stop blogging when my personal life goes tits up…and that is exactly what happened to me 🙁
I apologise now if you left me a comment recently and I haven’t replied yet. I also apologise if you are a PR and I haven’t returned any of your emails and if I haven’t thanked you for the lovely Christmas care packages. And if you were expecting to read my Christmas Gift Guide 2012, I want to point out that I had all my photos ready (see collage above) and I had drafted posts to tell you to check out the Christmas range at The Body Shop and the lovely Christmas gift sets at Priceline and Myer and so on… But unfortunately, lightning struck twice…
I’ve contemplated whether I should be so open about my personal life on this beauty blog because once you put yourself out there, people can take it the wrong way and attack you – like they constantly do on my personal blog. But I feel strangely comfortable here because I feel like I have more of a community here and it’s almost like this beauty blog and my readers are my BFFs – call me sad if you want 😛 Anyway, here goes…
So last year, I told you all that my Husband and I found out we both have a blood problem which results in a 1 in 4 chance of having a baby which dies immediately before or after birth. Anyway, after genetic counselling and a lot of discussion, we decided to take a risk and try to start a family this year. We were both scared and excited when we found out we were pregnant in early 2012, but sadly not long afterwards, we lost the baby. I was distraught and you may remember, I went on one of my blog breaks. Anyway, we were totally blessed to discover we were pregnant for the second time in 2012 and this time round, I felt more positive and upbeat. I thought – This is it! I am finally going to be a Mummy!
But I’m not.
Two weeks ago, I was in and out of hospitals for tests to determine the viability of the baby but sadly, I miscarried. To make it ten times worse, I had a procedure to remove the remains of my second baby ON THE SAME WEEK that my first baby was due! Seriously, imagine what an emotional wreck I was and still am. I am not in the “Woe is me!” Club (aka Pity Party) so I still went to work with the worst pains ever and I haven’t even told any friends about it either (sorry friends who read this blog) and I am still acting pretty normal around people but come bedtime, when all is dark and quiet and I have nothing to distract me…BOOM! Oh my goodness, I am such a crybaby!!!
It is quite a sad and sombre time for me, but I know people go through a lot more hardship than me so I am trying not to dwell on my problems. But yeah, I need to go through a time of healing and restoration before I can start beauty blogging again… I am in such an ugly state at the moment with the hairiest brows, hairiest upper lip, flakiest skin and biggest eye bags ever!!! I have temporarily lost my passion to beautify myself… But I’ll get back on track eventually. If not, I give you permission to slap me silly!
In fact, it was my sister (who is currently in Melbourne for holidays – thank God my sis and Mum are here – it has helped me immensely!) who painted my toe nails a lovely sparkly emerald green colour before I went in for my mini operation. It was to distract the medical staff from my grossly untrimmed downstairs 😛 (good to see my TMI sense of humour still exists!)
As for my Husband, he’s been very supportive as per usual…but he went on some crazy retail therapy and bought us a 7-seater car…! Umm… Whatever makes him happy 😉 Wait till I get my retail therapy when I go to Hong Kong in 3 weeks time!
If you have made it this far, thank you for reading! I hope you and your family have a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year! Eat lots, drink lots and laugh lots – create everlasting memories 🙂
I’ll be back next year (which is only next week!) and hopefully, 2013 will be a fantastic year ahead for all of us 🙂
Lots of love,