It’s been nearly two weeks since I last blogged and I am almost upset that no-one has messaged / Facebook-ed / Tweeted me to see what has happened to me and why I have suddenly gone on an unannounced blog break… ย Well, it’s okay, I will pretend that you all missed me and my blog ๐Ÿ™‚ ย But yeah, if you have been a long-time reader, you will know that I stop blogging when my personal life goes tits up…and that is exactly what happened to me ๐Ÿ™

I apologise now if you left me a comment recently and I haven’t replied yet. ย I also apologise if you are a PR and I haven’t returned any of your emails and if I haven’t thanked you for the lovely Christmas care packages. ย And if youย were expecting to read my Christmas Gift Guide 2012, I want to point out that I had all my photos ready (see collage above) and I had drafted posts to tell you to check out the Christmas range at The Body Shop and the lovely Christmas gift sets at Priceline and Myer and so on… ย But unfortunately, lightning struck twice…

I’ve contemplated whether I should be so open about my personal life on this beauty blog because once you put yourself out there, people can take it the wrong way and attack you – like they constantly do on my personal blog. ย But I feel strangely comfortable here because I feel like I have more of a community here and it’s almost like this beauty blog and my readers are my BFFs – call me sad if you want ๐Ÿ˜› ย Anyway, here goes…

So last year, I told you all that my Husband and I found out we both have a blood problem which results in a 1 in 4 chance of having a baby which dies immediately before or after birth. ย Anyway, after genetic counselling and a lot of discussion, we decided to take a risk and try to start a family this year. ย We were both scared and excited when we found out we were pregnant in early 2012, but sadly not long afterwards, we lost the baby. ย I was distraught and you may remember, I went on one of my blog breaks. ย Anyway, we were totally blessed to discover we were pregnant for the second time in 2012 and this time round, I felt more positive and upbeat. ย I thought – This is it! ย I am finally going to be a Mummy!

But I’m not.

Two weeks ago, I was in and out of hospitals for tests to determine the viability of the baby but sadly, I miscarried. ย To make it ten times worse, I had a procedure to remove the remains of my second baby ON THE SAME WEEK that my first baby was due! ย Seriously, imagine what an emotional wreck I was and still am. ย I am not in the “Woe is me!” Club (aka Pity Party) so I still went to work with the worst pains ever and I haven’t even told any friends about it either (sorry friends who read this blog) and I am still acting pretty normal around people but come bedtime, when all is dark and quiet and I have nothing to distract me…BOOM! ย Oh my goodness, I am such a crybaby!!!

It is quite a sad and sombre time for me, but I know people go through a lot more hardship than me so I am trying not to dwell on my problems. ย But yeah, I need to go through a time of healing and restoration before I can start beauty blogging again… ย I am in such an ugly state at the moment with the hairiest brows, hairiest upper lip, flakiest skin and biggest eye bags ever!!! ย I have temporarily lost my passion to beautify myself… ย But I’ll get back on track eventually. ย If not, I give you permission to slap me silly!

In fact, it was my sister (who is currently in Melbourne for holidays – thank God my sis and Mum are here – it has helped me immensely!) who painted my toe nails a lovely sparkly emerald green colour before I went in for my mini operation. ย It was to distract the medical staff from my grossly untrimmed downstairs ๐Ÿ˜› ย (good to see my TMI sense of humour still exists!)

As for my Husband, he’s been very supportive as per usual…but he went on some crazy retail therapy and bought us a 7-seater car…! ย Umm… ย Whatever makes him happy ๐Ÿ˜‰ ย Wait till I get my retail therapy when I go to Hong Kong in 3 weeks time!

If you have made it this far, thank you for reading! ย I hope you and your family have a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year! ย Eat lots, drink lots and laugh lots – create everlasting memories ๐Ÿ™‚

I’ll be back next year (which is only next week!) and hopefully, 2013 will be a fantastic year ahead for all of us ๐Ÿ™‚

Lots of love,

Ling x

89 comments on “When Lightning Struck Twice…”

  1. Stay positive Ling ๐Ÿ™‚
    I hope everything works out for you soon. In the mean time, merry Christmas!!! I hope 2013 will be a wonderful year for you and the hubby <3

  2. Thank you for sharing, Ling and I’m sorry to hear what a rough time you’ve had this year. Stay positive, take all the time you need and I wish you the best.

  3. Thanks for sharing, lovely. When one’s hit rock bottom, there’s nowhere else to go but up. At least, that’s what I tell myself each time I’m in the shithole, which is quite often ๐Ÿ˜›

    I have a strong feeling 2013 is going to be a good one for you, whatever it’s going to be.

    Have a blessed Christmas love. Hope to see you again soon in the new year.

    Tine xxx

    • @Tine, Totally agree! I am ready to go UP UP UP! And thanks again for being an amazing online and real-life friend! Hope to see more of you this year and not only at blogger events ๐Ÿ˜‰ xx

  4. Ling…glad you shared your story as I’m sure a lot of us who do love you would want to know what was going on. You know I’m here for you and it’s hard but you know where & how you can get me. xx

  5. *hugs* This is truly one of the most heartbreaking things that can happen to a woman, I’m sorry you had to go through it twice. Stay strong xx

    • @Rin, They have been such heartbreaking incidents…sigh… But I will stay strong and persist! Thank you for the support Rin xxx

  6. Oh hunny
    I am so sorry that you’ve had to go through this too.

    Hoping and praying for 2013. That it will all happen for you.

    I lost 3 in 2011 and am counting down the days until our miracle little boy arrives.

    Take care and be kind to yourself.

    SSG xxx

    • @Sydney Shop Girl, As I said before, I am so encouraged by your story. Thanks for sharing your journey on your blog. So glad to have somehow formed an online friendship with you…even though I have never seen your face and don’t even know your real name hah!

      Anyway, to have to go through THREE tragedies in one year must have been so heartbreaking. But super duper happy that your little miracle is arriving in single digit days :))))))

      I am going to pray extra hard for 2013 to be our year ๐Ÿ˜‰

      xxx

  7. Hi Hun, I am so sorry to hear about what happened. My heart goes out to you. Know that your friends will always be here for you whenever you want to talk, although we understand that some things are hard to verbalize.

    So glad your mum and sister are with you! Take care of yourself.

    I think we can all look forward to a fresh start in 2013!

    Xx

  8. maybe hubby buying a bigger car is an omen for what is to come in 2013, sorry to hear about your losses, I too miscarried and as much as it hurts still there is always hope, I hope you have a wonderful Christmas and New Year and look forward to hearing some awesome posts and blogs in the new year xx

    • @Narelle Rock, Aww thanks Narelle! You have always been so lovely to me. So sad to hear you suffered a miscarriage too…it’s actually surprisingly common!!!! But yeah, I have great hopes for next year so hoping for a miracle! Will keep you all posted xxx

  9. So sorry to hear about what has happenned, Ling. I had simply assumed that you were quiet as you had family over; getting into the Xmas spirit and all that kind of stuff. Big hugs from Adelaide xxx

  10. Of my gosh! I’m so sorry to hear about what you went through! *Hugs* I also hope for a wonderful 2013 for you both.

    Hang in there and Best holiday wishes.

    • @shellie, Thanks Shellie! Virtual hugs are great!!! ๐Ÿ™‚ And yes, I can already tell that 2013 will be an awesome year! Hope you have a great year ahead too xx

  11. sorry to hear about what happen, but stay positive and take your time to heal ๐Ÿ™‚

    *hugs*

    all the best for you in 2013 for you and your hubby!

  12. Oh shit Ling! I am so very sorry to hear about your loss. I feel bad that somehow I didn’t twig that something was up. Take care – lots of hugs, and lots MORE hugs. May next year be a good one for all xoxo

  13. Ling! I’m so sorry for what you are currently going through, I wouldn’t even imagine how hard it must be!! I’m sure 2013 will be your year. Lots of hugs!! Merry Christmas!!

    • @kerker, Thank you gorgeous! Wanted to tell you girls at Ling’s Racing BBQ but didn’t know how to…it explains my fussy eating habits ๐Ÿ˜› Anyway, yeah, I’m very hopeful for 2013 ๐Ÿ™‚ Hope to see you soon xx

  14. I’m so sorry to hear about this Ling. Words seem a bit facile at such a sorrowful moment, but I really hope that one day you will be able to realise your dream of parenthood. I hope this Christmas brings you some much needed joy ๐Ÿ™‚

    • @Dempeaux, Oh Sarah, you always seem to know what to say! You have an amazing way with words!!!! Thanks so much babe! And hope you have a fab year ahead xxx

  15. Oh babe, I’m sorry to hear this. I’m not going to pretend to know what you and your husband are going through, so all I will say is that my thoughts are with you… and I love how in typical Ling style you have sparkly green toenails while in hospital.
    xoxo

  16. I thought you’ve been quiet because you’re busy with your mom and sis. So sorry to hear about this. Lots of hugs and kisses from me and pretty girl. Hope you’ll have a great holiday in HK and better 2013!

    • @coco, Thank you my pretties ๐Ÿ™‚ Means a lot to have so many supportive people ๐Ÿ™‚ And yeah, HK – I am going to shop and eat like never before ๐Ÿ˜‰

  17. Oh my goodness Ling, I’m so sorry you had to go through that twice in the one year…I honestly thought that you were too busy with your mother and sister but please be at ease. I am here for you if you need to speak and up your moral support.
    I know its hard but one day you will have a beautiful family, I know so!! Stay positive because even for some conceiving at all is the hardest part too. It will take time but wounds will heal and you can get back up on your feet and try again when you are ready ๐Ÿ™‚ You can do it!!
    Love you Ling and please please please, I’m always a tweet away <3

    • @Saera, You are so gorgeous Saera! Your support is AMAZING! Can’t believe I am so blessed to know such a sweet girl like you! I am glad you are only a tweet away! THANK YOU! xxx

  18. Hi Ling, sorry to hear of your loss. I hope 2013 will be a much brighter and positive year for you and your hubby. I keep checking your blog but I thought maybe you were super busy in the lead up to Christmas, etc.
    Thank you for sharing and all the best. xxx

  19. Don’t be too down Ling! I am sure that 2013 will be a much better year for you! Be the same as you are – joyful, bubbly, TMI-prone ๐Ÿ˜› I hope that you will have a lovely family soon, safe and sound. All the best!

  20. Ling, I’m so sorry for what you have had to go through, and hope 2013 bring you much more luck and happiness.

    xx

  21. Poor Ling, what a tough time you’ve been having. Don’t be scared to talk to people though it’s not healthy to bottle things up at all which many women are prone to doing when they go through this kind of loss. It seems you have a wonderful husband and family and all of the beauty blogging community is here for you too should you ever need anything xoxo

  22. all the best to you ling… so sorry to hear what has happened. always here if you need someone to chat to, but i’m sure the odds are in your favour for next year ๐Ÿ™‚ lots and lots of love to you (and noah)!

  23. Oh, my dearest Ling,
    I have been so out of the blogging world lately, so I’m sorry I didn’t get to send you my love sooner ๐Ÿ™
    I can’t begin to know how you’re feeling. I’ve never met you in person,but I do feel that you’re a kind, sweet, strong person, and one of my favorite people in this blogging world. Beauty is truly held within, and I know that you’re beautiful no matter what – overgrown hair and all. ๐Ÿ™‚
    My heart goes out to you and your husband, and I do hope that one day, maybe soon, a child/children will be blessed to call you their Mummy and Daddy.
    Much love to you, Ling.
    -Ashlynn

    • @Ashlynn, Oh Ashlynn, you are truly a sweetheart. Thank you for your beautiful words of love and encouragement! <3 I can't remember how we started chatting to each other online but I am very grateful that we did start chatting because you are such a generous and loving person! I hope we meet one day in person so I can give you a big THANK YOU hug *mwah*

  24. I’m so sorry to hear this Ling. I can’t imagine what you must be going through.
    I really admire you for being able to able to speak about it in a public forum.
    Every good wish.

  25. Ling, as a newer reader/follower (I was intro’d to you via Reese at a bloggers dinner), I had no idea and am saddened by your news. But as you said which you’re perfectly right about, there’s many others less fortunate than us. For me, I get instantly slammed with reality and the silliness of my daily woes when I see someone blind trying to find their way about in the city. Best of luck with trying again, power to you both! And I hope you’re having a better end of year hun ๐Ÿ™‚ xx

    • @Helen, I love Reese! I’ve only met her once but she is so lovely in person and online too! Feel totally blessed to be introduced by her! Thanks for leaving a lovely comment. I am glad 2012 is over because 2013 is going to be MY year in better ways than I can dream of ๐Ÿ™‚ Hope it is the same for you too xxx

  26. Sorry to hear of your loss, stay positive and am sure 2013 will be an extra special year for you! ๐Ÿ™‚ i had the same experience in 2012 myself so i know exactly how you’re feeling, but don’t give up as i’m sure it’ll all work out wonderfully for you in the end. Take care and wishing you a blessed and happy 2013! ๐Ÿ™‚

    • @nadia, Thanks Nadia! I am so sorry to hear of your experience too and sad to see you leave Melbourne but just know that I am only an email away xxx

  27. I don’t even know what to say ๐Ÿ™
    Thinking of you and your husband and wishing you both good things in 2013 xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

    • @Dayani, Wow, thanks so much Dayani! You don’t have to say anything but just leaving a lovely comment like this is enough to make me smile ๐Ÿ™‚ Thank you

  28. I haven’t blogged for several weeks now myself, so it’s not like you weren’t missed I think a lot of bloggers take a break around this time of year.

    As for what you are going through I’m not going to lie and say I understand because I’ve never wanted children. I do however admire your honesty and sharing your pain with your readers. Hopefully it will go towards helping you heal. Blessings and good wishes to you and your husband for 2013 xoxo

    • @Annabella Freeman, Holiday blog breaks are awesome! But at the same time for an avid blog reader like me, I miss all my favourite bloggers including you ๐Ÿ˜‰

      And thanks Annabella for your honest and supportive comment. Sometimes I wish it was easier if we didn’t want children but we do!!! I always dreamt that I’d have 6 kids…now we will be blessed if we have ONE healthy child! But I am positive it will happen one day ๐Ÿ˜‰ Happy 2013 to you too *mwah*

  29. Sorry to hear about your recent loss, and here’s sending you heaps of good vibes for 2013! Stay positive, stay strong and as Tine said, there’s nowhere else to go but up! *HUGZ*

    • @beetrice, Hear hear! Thanks B! Means a lot! And yes, 2013 is gonna be an awesome year for everyone ๐Ÿ™‚ Hope I get a real-life hug from you one day ๐Ÿ˜‰ *mwah*

  30. My dear Ling…I’m terribly sorry for not keeping in touch and very sorry to hear of your loss. I cannot fathom what you and your hubby must be going through, as a loss of a baby, child, fetus would be heart wrenching.

    My thoughts are of you, take care and hope to see your smiling face once again on this blog. But take all the time you need to to heal xoxo

    • @E-von, It was a heart wrenching 2012 but I survived ๐Ÿ™‚ And I am looking forward to what 2013 will bring. Thanks again for the amazing support E-von! x

  31. Happy new year Ling!

    I’m sorry this has happened again. I went through 2 losses myself. Latest in june last year and I even had to go through the small op twice to remove the remnants of the pregnancy. I was devastated. But third time’s a charm. I am pregnant again and nearing 16 weeks now. Not totally in the clear yet but I’m prayerful and hopeful. This year will be a year for us I’m sure! Feel free to talk to me anytime if you need somemone to talk to..

    • @Yann, Congratulations Yann! So happy to hear that you have overcome 2 losses with a winner the 3rd time. Fingers crossed that happens to me too ๐Ÿ™‚ Have you found out the sex of the baby yet?

  32. I just only caught up with my blog reading and am so sorry to hear of your loss Ling. Stay strong and I am believing with you that 2013 will be YOUR year. *big hugs*

    • @rinnah, Thank you Rinnah – I have only just logged onto my blog today so I feel bad for replying so late ๐Ÿ˜› But thanks for the *big hugs* – they are awesome ๐Ÿ™‚

  33. Remain positive and I do believe that people who work hard, try their best to remain positive and believe it will happen, get rewarded ten-fold for their patience :] Never you worry that you have been neglecting your blog, because above all, your friends, family and readers want you to put yourself first. You are important to us and we want nothing more than your happiness and safety. Don’t ever feel we will walk away from you if you are in need of putting yourself first :]

    Love you long time love and will definitely catch up for a pigging out sesh when you get back from HK <3

    <3 always, khatsii

  34. I hope you’ll get better dear and I know what’s like as well. No words can express how you are feeling at this moment and no words can comfort this time, only time can heal. I miscarried mine a few years ago a day before New Years Eve. My heart just broke as well and it was difficult for me to move on. I’ll be praying for you!

    • @Cynthia, Thank you so much for the prayers Cynthia. Prayers heal miraculously ๐Ÿ™‚ And really sorry to hear you went through the same thing too…. but yay, you have your beautiful child now…so I will wait for God to give me one too ๐Ÿ™‚ xx

  35. I’m very sorry for your pain Ling. I missed you….but I’m just useless at leaving comments even on good days.
    Please take care. Will be thinking of you.
    xx Marnie

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